Yan Xue knows that it’s no use saying that Xu Lihao is the kind of person who has a heavy responsibility. Even if she is not today, he will choose to pounce on him. He has always been like this. His great love is far more important than his little love. This kind of person is not suitable for lovemaking because you will always be behind.
Although I said that no matter Yan Xue, I still want to say that she intends to make it clear to Xu Lihao that since they are impossible, don’t let him hold unrealistic fantasies. Yan Xue disdains playing ambiguous games.
Don’t ask me to do anything, even if you do more, I won’t give you a response. You are not my type. I want to be someone who puts me in the most important position wholeheartedly, which you can never do.
Call her selfish or think about herself. She is a woman without great wisdom. She wants to find someone who is dedicated to her, even if that person is talented and wants to be kind to her, then she can give her heart.
Xu Lihao didn’t expect to hear Yan Xue say such words when he woke up. His face was a little pale due to injury, and his voice was weak and he said, "Are you single-minded? What if I can do it? "
"but you can do it, but when you see that you should take responsibility, you ignore it because of me. Will it make you feel better? Are you happy to let yourself live so tired just because you like me? Is it worth it? Sex is hard to change and there is nothing wrong with you that is not suitable for me! "
What she experienced in her previous life made her go into this paranoid state. She knew that she was wrong, but just as she couldn’t change Xu Li Hao, she couldn’t change herself either. These deep bone marrow pains have become a poison, and the antidote can be to follow her heart.
Xu Lihao fell silent and heard Yan Xue say, "Don’t try to care for me again. You are a burden to me."
Sometimes being kind to others comes from your position, but it is not necessarily that others will be very happy. More often, Yan Xue is a burden. If others want her and can’t give her, then she would rather that person not be kind to her than always be kind to her.
Xu Lihao reached out and held Yan Xue’s hand and said, "Xiaoxue, let’s be brothers and sisters with different surnames so that you won’t have a psychological burden if I treat you well!"
Yan Xue heard this one leng is in the distance, how to get involved deeper and deeper. Although it sounds like brother and sister, such ambiguity may cross the line at any time.
Xu Lihao looked at Yan Xue’s dull face and smiled. He reached out and rubbed her hair and said, "You are like you can’t accept me. I can’t help being nice to you. It’s hard for me to see you, or we’ll be brother and sister!"
He is sincere in being kind to Yan Xue. Even if she doesn’t like herself, he wants to be kind to her. He can’t even tell whether this is the kind of love between men and women. He always remembers her when he first meets her.
Xu Lihao added, "You said that you care about everything wholeheartedly, but it’s hard to find you. You can’t find a generation alone. Isn’t it hard to find a brother with you?"
What the ancients learned and taught was that men should stand tall, their families should strive for glory and glory, and the country should do its best. As Yan Xue said, it is difficult to find people even now, not to mention ancient times. It is impossible for a group animal to live in isolation outside the group.
Yan Xue’s paranoia has actually entered a morbid state of mind, and she will never walk out. If she walks out one day, she may even laugh at herself for being so naive!
But now she can’t even pretend that she can’t accept Xu Li Hao and Xiao Jin, so she can see that Xiao Jin is also very good to her, but she can’t guess Xiao Jin and Xiao Jin are more worried than Xu Lihao.
Phoenix bamboo will hear the conversation between the two people. She naturally knows why Yan Xue has such a disease.
Fengzhu sighed in her heart because her biological parents and adoptive parents committed crimes. She has always been gentle and easy-going with Yan Xue, but she didn’t care about these things, but she didn’t expect that she not only cared but also had such a deep influence on her.
What, being kind to yourself wholeheartedly? Is there such a person? Even Xu Zhongyong can’t do it. He can kill himself, but he will also risk his brothers’ lives.
Phoenix bamboo thought of Yan Xue’s single-minded shame, and she murmured, "Don’t you feel timid if you are nothing?" You imagine it’s wonderful now, maybe it really appears, and you will know how bad it is to be such a person. "
Fengzhu muttered thinking about how to open Yan Xuexin’s past life. Yan Xue grew up in an ordinary family, but she was a daughter of a big family. She was brought up in an ordinary family because she was born in the wrong place.
And another girl with the wrong arms lives instead of her. That girl is well raised by her biological parents, and she is talented and capable, which is the kind of talented arrogance.
In the end, it was discovered that the adoptive parents wanted their own children back, and the biological parents were very affectionate and didn’t want to give up raising them, so the two sides went to court.
Neither adoptive parents nor biological parents thought that Yan Xue was so ordinary that neither side wanted her to fight for the girl with a halo.
Finally, her biological parents lost the case and left, and Yan Xue moved back to her biological parents’ home. However, her biological parents always cared about raising her, and she always came back to see her biological parents from time to time before Yan Xue.
Every time they get along well with each other, Yan Xue is more like an outsider, whether she is with her adoptive parents or her biological parents, she is redundant.
Her ordinary family has paid so much for her adoptive parents to want their own children, but she is the biological parents and children, but no one loves her. What did she do wrong?
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Feng Zhu thought that Yan Xue’s parents didn’t find that Yan Xue had come out. Yan Xue said angrily, "When do you want to hear?"
Yan Xue was holding some bloody bandages in his hand and planning to throw away the phoenix bamboo. "Do you want to know how your biological parents and adoptive parents reacted after your death?" Feng Zhu looked at Yan Xue with a stiff body, but in the end she turned to leave and said "no need"
Fengzhu didn’t let her leave reluctantly, and she didn’t feel the need. No matter how much the two parents regretted and blamed themselves after her death, there was no harm already done. Can those profound injuries be erased because they knew they were wrong?
It’s understandable that adoptive parents don’t love her. After all, it’s not that they have lost their flesh, but what is the reason why their biological parents don’t treat her well? It’s their own blood. Is it a reason for alienation from being pregnant in October to being born?
Even the biological parents can’t be nice to their children, so Yan Xue still dares to believe that anyone who is so close can abandon the people who appear in her life. Can she believe it?
Fengzhu denies that it is wrong for Yan Xue to isolate herself like this. She just wants to protect herself. Once the people around her leave her, she will smile gently. You see, it is true. These people are unbelievable. Fortunately, I didn’t believe him either!
Yan Xue doesn’t want to get hurt again. No matter who she is, she doesn’t put too much emotion into it. She has always been ready to get out and prepare. Once she sees bad signs, she will run away and never look back.
Fengzhu believes that Yan Xue’s stubborn illness can’t be solved unless something happens in this life, but is it possible? In ancient times, there was no misunderstanding that women gave birth to children and delivered babies at home. She can’t find the right parents for Yan Xue to lie to her!
Besides, Yan Xue grew up in the palace in this life. In another sense, her mother died and her father sent them to the palace because of their particularity, which is also a kind of abandonment.
Seeing Yan Xue coming back, Fengzhu didn’t talk about it just now, but asked Yan Xue, "You came earlier than me. Have you ever heard of someone with the same name as Xuanruo?" Yan Xue and she didn’t change their names when they came here. She thought Xuanre might not have changed her name either.
She can also find Yan Xue about this matter. If she wants to find Xu Zhongyong, she can’t tell clearly what she wants to find a person named Xuanre Fengzhu, just a village girl who lives in Fengsha Village. At most, she has been to the city for a few times to know anyone, and everyone in the village can say it.
When I arrived at Xuanre Yan Xue, I began to grind my teeth. I have to say that not only did Fengzhu miss her, but Yan Xue missed her more than Fengzhu. She couldn’t wait to find Xuanre immediately and then get revenge and complain!
Yan Xue said, "It’s up to me to check in Cangguo and Yuqiong." Yan Xue replied that Fengzhu nodded and thought about how to tell her man about Xuanre.
After the two separated, Fengzhu and Xu Zhi stayed for another afternoon, but Yan Yue was always pestering Xu Zhi, whose mind was five years old and Xu Zhi was a child. They could play together, and the royal family in the dome countries were naturally resistant to the mastermind and were not afraid to play with Yan Yue.
The fierce fight yesterday was bloody and dead, but Xu Zhi was not scared. I have to say that she is a man. Er, no, she is a man’s nephew!
Xu Zhi took advantage of Yan Yue’s side to play against the phoenix bamboo and quietly asked, "Is Mother Yue’s sister insane? She is already an adult, but she is like a child." Xu Zhi looked at Yan Yue’s eyes, although she didn’t abandon them, but she didn’t like them.
No matter what age, people with disabilities always wear colored glasses, and ancient times are even worse than modern times. Because people with disabilities are recognized as bringing bad luck to their families, people with disabilities are usually strangled when they are born.
Yan Yue can worry about living because of her particularity, or whether she can live or not is really two opinions.
Fengzhu solemnly said to Xu Zhi, "Xu Zhi, her brain is abnormal. Will you hate her?" Xu Zhi thought for a moment and answered, "But she is sick, Mud. They say that if you can’t be with a patient, you will get sick together."
Little Mud is Xu Zhi’s playmate in Fengsha Village. He said this because adults have told him so, and adults are afraid that their children will suffer when they play with disabled people. For example, if people with mental disabilities hurt their children, you can’t tell clearly even if you go to theory.
Fengzhu said, "I won’t get sick. Those are all lies. Little Mud says this because he is afraid of playing with such people and losing money. For example, if he fights, he can’t fight back. Because of their poor health, his family will tell his parents that his parents will beat him up. If he is not beaten, he won’t play with any patients."
Children can’t understand the truth. Fengzhu can’t say it’s too abstruse. It can be explained to Xu Zhi. Xu Zhi listened and asked, "Is there a patient who loves to hit people?" Will Yan Yue also hit me? "
"Won’t you play well? What will she do? If you make her angry, she may fight with you. Don’t you fight with your children? Yan Yue is just like your little friend. You make her unhappy so that she can fight with you. "
"So that’s it. If only Xu Zhi would treat Yan Yue as a child. If we don’t fight, can Xu Zhi hit her?" Xu zhi asked again
"She’s sick. What if you hit her and make her worse? Xu Zhi should let her go. In fact, such a person is very good. You should just follow her. "Fengzhu can’t teach children to bully the disabled."
Xu Zhi nodded and answered, "Well, it’s poor enough that Xu Zhi will let her get sick. Xu Zhi can’t bully her anymore. Xu Zhi won’t hate her or other patients." Feng Zhu kissed Xu Zhi’s face and said, "Xu Zhi is really clever and knows how to draw inferences."
Feng Zhu just finished Yan Yue over there and shouted excitedly at him, "Xu Zhi, come and see me dig an ant nest. There are many small ants." Xu Zhi listened to the words and ran away, and the two of them played together again.
Looking at the two people, I don’t know what Yan Yue seemed unhappy, but Xu Zhi coaxed her with patience. Finally, Yan Yue was happy again. Looking at Xu Zhi, Feng Zhu looked at her and exaggerated. He touched his forehead and sweated. Feng Zhu smiled at Xu Zhi and gave a thumbs-up sign. Xu Zhi was very happy.
Fengzhu watched Xu Zhi play. A man not far away was practicing law with a dark guard, apparently to deal with the assassination.
Men’s drills are all phoenix bamboos, but she can still see that they are very powerful. Once they are started, everyone’s lethality is superimposed on each other, which is much more powerful than fighting alone.